In recent years my birthday has become a day of reflection. It started when I turned 25. I suppose it's from inching closer to 30 each year, which is something I actually look forward to. It's a time for me to check in with myself. Where are you now? Where did you think you would be at 27? Pretty much just a "how are things going?" in my head.
If someone would have told me I would be celebrating this birthday with wonderful friends, in Thailand, I would not have believed them. Or that the very same weekend I would attend a wedding anniversary party with people I met while traveling, alone, in Burma for 18 days. It's funny where life takes us. After everything I went through this past year- lay off, break- up, car accident, losing my apartment, etc. things have completely turned around. I am healthier mentally and physically than I have been since I can remember. It feels like I have built a life here in Chiang Mai, and I am completely in love. Sometimes I wonder, is it me that has changed or is it this place? If I leave and go to another continent will I still feel this way? I think the answer lays in a little bit of both. Making peace with yourself is invaluable, and not to be taken for granted. Today, as I was driving home from a Saturday event at school I was thinking to myself how lucky I am. All these amazing experiences and places and people. In the next moment I realized I am not just lucky. This is not the universe throwing me a bone for once. This is a result of the choices I have made.
We make our own luck.
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